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The Bird that Sang in Color will be released on January 17th and will be available through Amazon and all major online book sellers. This generational saga is told from the point of view of Donna Greco, the matriarch of the Greco family. She subscribes to a conventional view of success in life and pushes her freewheeling, artistic brother, Vincent to do the same. He refuses to conform, and she harbors guilt for her supposed failure to ensure his happiness until she discovers a book of sketches he made of his life, which allows her to see his internal joy and to discover the secret to living free!   

My inspiration for writing this book comes from finding my own brother’s pictorial autobiography. It inspired me to think of my life in terms of pictures, which in turn, inspired me to live my life more fully. I wanted to share this insight and inspiration with the world.

Fiction Books Biz has called this book highly polished artistic prose, lyrical, filled with emotionally complex characters, profound and thought provoking. Midwest Book Review says that this book is an inspiring and humorous story that examines the wellsprings of creative force and legacies. Rose City Reader calls it a heartfelt family story told with grace and humor.

This contemporary literary fiction novel is the third book in the Greco Family Trilogy. It spans decades, beginning in 1970 and ending in the present. Enjoy the following opening scene from The Bird that Sang in Color.

 

 

THE GOLDEN GARDEN BIRD OF PEACE were the words painted on the wall in Vincent’s room. I thought Dad would have painted over them because he couldn’t stand all that “hippie crap.” Beside the words hung a bunch of paintings he made. He painted trees, mountains, rivers, flowers, and people with real-life expressions that made them more than just pictures. They were alive, and they told stories. 

Some of his paintings were abstract, my favorite being one that looked like a kaleidoscope with no beginning and no end and colors that bounced off the canvas like a beautiful neon sign sparkling against a black sky. I could stare at it all day. I went between staring at it and the album cover before me—Let It Be by the Beatles. Vincent sat by the record player, dressed in his usual Levi’s, T-shirt, and Converse high-tops, bent towards the revolving album, listening intently, his head of black curly hair moving back and forth, his right foot tapping the hardwood floor, keeping rhythm to the Fab Four. 

Finally, he turned his head away from the stereo and said to me, “I can’t believe this is it.” His face was serious and gloomy, and I didn’t know what he was talking about, but I pretended that I did because I’d never let my cool down around Vincent. It was because of him that I knew so much about rock and roll, which made me pretty sure that I was the coolest eighth-grade girl in the whole town and possibly in the whole state of New Jersey. 

“I know,” I said seriously.

“I mean, I just never thought the Beatles would break up.” He shook his head with disappointment.   

“So, this is their last album, then?”

“Well, yeah,” he said, like I should have known better.  

“Hey, check this out, Donna.” With the speed of a light switch flicking on, he turned into an entirely different person, no longer sad and gloomy but light and happy. He showed me a drawing he made of an old lady sitting on a chair with half of her body missing, and it looked as if the missing half was on the other side of an invisible door. She wore a mysterious smile as if she knew some extraordinary truth. 

“Where’s the other half of her body?” I said.

“I don’t know,” he said, grinning. “You tell me.”  

“Wow.” I sat there, trying to wrap my head around this while listening to the song playing. Just as I was about to figure something out about the picture, and just as I was really getting into the song, he took the needle off, turned the album over, and put the needle on the first song on the other side, a tendency he had that bothered the hell out of our brother, Carmen. 

He scratched his head and looked up, his eyes penetrating the ceiling, deep in thought. He resembled Mom with his olive skin, Roman nose, and black curls, and was the only one of us who got her curly hair. The rest of us had straight hair. Mine was super long—to the bottom of my back—and I wore it parted in the middle and was certain that I was wearing it that way long before it was the style. 

Vincent was also taller than the rest of us at over six feet. Dad said he took after his own dad in stature. I never knew Grandpa Tucci because he died before I was born, but I was told he was called “Lanky” because he was tall and skinny. I was pretty thin myself and had a bottomless pit. People would say that all my eating would catch up with me one day, but that never stopped me from eating ice cream every day after school. Breyers butter almond was my favorite. 

Vincent listened to the music with pure attention, like there was nothing else in the world as George sang I, me, mine, I, me, mine, I, me, mine. He was probably trying to figure out what the song was about or how he could play it on his guitar. His acoustic guitar sat in the corner of his room. He had the smallest room in the house, but it seemed like the biggest because it was its own self-contained universe. I felt like I could be on the other side of the world without ever leaving his room. 

His paintings and drawings covered the walls. A bunch of leather-bound cases of albums colored red and black and bone sat on the floor between a stereo and a wooden desk with piles of books and sketchbooks on top. Comic books, pens, and paintbrushes scattered on the floor like seashells on the sand.

I shared a room with my younger sister, Nancy, and she insisted on having the room be as pink as possible. She was the youngest, so she always got her way. On top of making our room a sickening pink paradise, she had a doll collection with faces that really creeped me out, and she started pushing over my beloved books on our shelves to make room for her dolls. A doll named Lucinda with blond hair and a blue satin dress was shoved up against two of my favorites—Animal Farm and To Kill a Mockingbird. 

“Check this out, Donna,” Vincent said, emerging from his music-listening trance. He took a skinny metal whistle out of a plastic case. “Got it at the music store in town.”

“Neat. Some kind of flute?” I said.

“A pennywhistle.” He had a big smile that stretched from one side of his face to the other. “Or sometimes called a tin whistle.”

“I wish I could play an instrument,” I said. “Just one.” I was the only one in our family that didn’t play an instrument. Mom wanted me to learn ballet instead because she said I had a dancer’s body. I liked it all right and stayed with it until my teacher put me on toe, and the wooden shoes imprisoned my feet and made them ache hours after class ended.

“Have it.”

“Really?!”

“Sure.” He started fishing in one of his desk drawers for something.

“Thanks, Vincent.” No response. He just kept on with his searching. I looked at the tin instrument wondering how I’d learn to play it, when he poked his head up and gave me an instructional songbook for it. I went through it seeing musical notation for simple songs like “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.” It was all new territory for me, but I knew I could learn it and thought I could go anywhere from there. I saw myself playing with Vincent as he strummed the guitar, playing on the street for money, playing in a small orchestra of other penny whistlers. Just then, Mom called out from the kitchen.

“Dinner’s ready!” I didn’t care that my fantasy was interrupted because I was starving.  Vincent was always up for eating and was the biggest eater I knew. He seemed especially hungry because he was walking to the kitchen really fast. Even when he walked fast, he looked cool. He walked with a bounce in his step, his head bobbing back and forth like he was keeping beat to a song that only he could hear. I tried to walk like him once, but I ended up looking like some kind of uncoordinated monkey. I walked like Dad who moved fast and forward-leaning, like he was continually running late for something.    

The kitchen smelled of garlic and fish. It was Friday, and Mom always cooked fish on Fridays. A big flat bowl with hand-painted flowers was filled with spaghetti, calamari and gravy—more commonly known as tomato sauce. My older sister, Gloria was setting the large wooden table that sat in the center of the kitchen. She wore her hair tucked neatly behind her ears and a black-and-tan argyle vest that fit snug on her shapely body. Her face had the usual serious, troubled look on it like something was wrong. Anthony—the oldest in the family—was away at college, and Nancy was at a sleepover, so the table was set for only six. 

Mom was at the sink, getting a salad together. Above the sink was a long window that looked out onto our backyard, its ledge covered with little ladybug statues, which Mom loved because they meant good luck. She wore a red-and-white apron over a straight skirt and boots and took long, swift strides around the kitchen. Watching her get dinner together was like watching a performance. She’d put on her apron instead of a costume. The music played: the chopping of vegetables, the clanging of metal spoons against pots, and the sweet sound of pouring. She’d dance around, gathering ingredients, sautéing, stirring, occasionally turning towards us—the audience—to say something or laugh with us so that we’d feel a part of the show. She presented her perfect meals like works of art, displaying them on the table, and we’d applaud by eating—grabbing, twirling, chewing—until we couldn’t fit anymore in.  

 Dad was opening up one of his bottles of homemade wine. I had a sip once, and it went down my throat like an angry snake. He leaned on the table like he needed it to support him with his eyes half-shut and his black-and-gray hair falling forward in his face. In his tiredness, he didn’t speak, but even when he was quiet, he was loud, and whenever he walked into a room, everybody knew it, even if he didn’t say a word.  

“Carmen, come and eat!” Mom called out.

 In seconds, Carmen appeared in a foyer off the kitchen, flannel shirt, jeans, hair smashed against one side of his head. He yawned and stretched like he just woke from a nap. Everybody took their places and started grabbing stuff. Everybody except Dad, that is, who was always less concerned with food and more concerned with whatever he was drinking. I went for the salad as soon as Mom put it on the table for fear of not getting any because Gloria always hogged it.   

“Wanna shoot a game of pool after dinner?” Vincent said to Carmen as he took a giant-size bite of his bread. We just got this really nice pool table in our basement, which Dad claimed Minnesota Fats once played on.

“Sure,” Carmen said, as he sprinkled Parmesan cheese on his spaghetti.  

“Can you do me a favor while you’re down there?” Dad said to Carmen, as he held his hands up in the air like he was holding an invisible beach ball. “Do something with that drum set. I want it out of here.” 

“I’m gonna learn to play, Dad,” Carmen said.

“You’ve been saying that for six months now,” Mom said. “And how’d you get that thing anyway?”

“I traded Kenny some comic books,” Carmen said.

“That’s it?” Mom said as she ate her salad. 

“Well, they were some really valuable comic books,” Carmen said.

“You told me his parents didn’t want it there,” Gloria said. She then turned to Mom and asked her if she could go to her friend’s house after dinner. Mom said she could go as long as she was home by nine.

“Why don’t you ask your father?” Dad said to Gloria. “I guess the only thing I’m good for is paying all the bills.” He then turned to Carmen and said, “You have to get that out of here. You can’t be playing drums in here. Why do you want to bother the neighbors like that anyway?” He was one to talk about disturbing the neighbors. At least once a week, he’d drink too much and go on a screaming rampage over nothing. Sometimes, he’d scream so loud that one of the neighbors would call the cops, and then the cops would come into our house and start calming him down, saying “C’mon, Cosimo, take it easy.” 

“Oops,” Vincent said as he knocked over his glass of water on the table.

“Why don’t you watch what you’re doing?!” Dad said to Vincent.

“I didn’t get them to disturb the neighbors,” Carmen said to Dad. “I got them to play.”

“Yeah, he should play the drums,” Vincent said in a matter-of-fact tone as he cleaned up the spill with his napkin. “He’s gotta play the drums. He has natural rhythm.” He put a huge forkful of spaghetti in his mouth. 

“You know who has natural rhythm, don’t you?” Dad said, like he was well aware of the answer. I sure was. “Your father.” He twirled spaghetti on the side of his plate. “I played trumpet for over twenty-five years.” His stories always seemed to change, with the numbers always getting bigger. Last time I heard this story, it was almost twenty years, and the time before that, it was fifteen years. But even when he talked nonsense, he sounded smart and authoritative because his voice was so deep and sturdy.

“You know who else has natural rhythm?” Carmen said. “Grandma. She’s always saying she could have been an opera star, so you and Grandma have a lot in common.” He was talking about Mom’s mom, who Dad couldn’t stand. Dad would call Grandma a grandstander. She didn’t think much of him either. I’m not sure why they didn’t get along because they were a lot alike. Carmen was always trying to get Dad’s goat, and for some reason, he always got away with it, maybe because Dad got a kick out of him.  

“Don’t get wise,” Dad said to Carmen, smirking. 

“Ah shit,” I said, getting up from the table and running towards the sink. I spilled gravy on my plaid bell-bottoms, and they were my favorite pair of pants.  

“Watch your mouth!” Mom and Dad said at the same time. I said it under my breath, so I didn’t think they could hear. Besides, I thought that the possibility of ruining my favorite pants was worth a curse word or two, and besides that, we all cursed, except Carmen. Dad was the worst—expletives rolled off his tongue like raindrops sliding down a sidewalk curb. I rubbed the stain with hot water and dish liquid and was relieved that it came out. 

“Did you ever hear Grandma sing?” Gloria said with a sardonic smile. She then started to sing some wordless song like a hysterical opera star.

“Enough,” Mom said. “Who stole my napkin?” Mom and Carmen played a game at dinner in which one sneakily stole the other one’s napkin. They sat right next to each other, so it was easy to play.  

“And anyway, he’s got an instrument—the violin,” Dad said to Vincent, who stared calmly into the space in front of him, chewing his food.

“He needs more than one instrument,” Vincent said. His voice was deep like Dad’s but not a fraction as serious and stern. 

“Ah,” Dad said, waving his arm in the air. “He needs to study his books, so he can make something out of himself. Maybe he’ll want to become a lawyer like Anthony does. Now, he has a good head on his shoulders.”

Vincent stopped eating and looked down with sad eyes. I knew what he was thinking. I could read everybody in our family, especially him. He was thinking about what Dad said about Anthony having a good head on his shoulders and about Carmen studying his books, so he could make something out of himself. Dad always spoke a weird language. How did a person make something out of himself? What he meant by that is that Carmen would be successful if he studied hard in high school and took up something in college like business, so he could get into something like real estate, which is what Dad did or even better, pre-law, like Anthony was studying. 

But Vincent didn’t want to do any such thing. He wanted to go to art school. Dad said it would be a waste of time and money and that if he wanted to go so bad, he could, but that he wouldn’t pay a penny. Carmen said he wanted to go just because some girl he liked was going, but I knew he was wrong. He wanted to go because he loved to make art. I wanted him to go because he was the best artist I knew. 

Just as I was trying to think of something to say to change the topic, Vincent got up and said he didn’t feel so good and wasn’t hungry. I knew that was bullshit because he never lost his appetite. 

“Why did you say that, Dad?” I said after Vincent left. “You know how he wants to go to art school.” 

“Don’t talk back to your father,” he said, as automatic as a machine gun firing. I didn’t think I was talking back because he didn’t say anything to me first. “And what does one thing have to do with the other anyway?” he continued. I couldn’t answer the question because he told me not to talk back, so I was glad when Mom explained the connection to him. 

“He’s too sensitive, Gilda. How’s he going to get anywhere in life?” Dad said to Mom. “And let me tell you something. My father used to say in Italian ‘Those who hate you make you laugh. Those who love you make you cry.’” I knew this one by heart. It was his favorite thing to say that his dad used to say in Italian. 

“It’s the same with you studying piano in college,” Dad said to Mom. “You should have studied history.” He turned to the rest of us and said, “She won the award in the whole state of Ohio in some big history competition. It was her parents that thought she should study music.”

“Maybe Vince should study acting,” Carmen said, scraping the rest of his plate clean. “Remember he acted in that Shakespeare play?”  

“Ah,” Dad said, waving his hand in disgust. “Acting, art, music. It’s all the same.”

“Why did your parents think you should study piano?” I asked Mom.

“Because Grandma loved music,” Mom said, standing up. Grandma after all named Mom Gilda (with a soft G) after a character in a famous opera. She then added, “They were from the old country.”

Dad still had that look that said that Mom’s parents were stupid for making her study music instead of history, so I asked him what was wrong with studying music and art because he seemed to have something against that sort of thing.  

“Ah,” he said, getting up from the table. “You’re too young to understand. Ask me that when you’re old enough to know something about the world.” Then, he looked in Mom’s direction and said, “My parents were from the old country too, but they knew better.” With that, he left the kitchen and headed into the living room, where he sat for the rest of the night, in his same old chair under the painting of the pope, drinking, smoking, and listening to Frank Sinatra on the radio.